Wedding Planner

Today my friend at work decided I needed to kick it into high gear. So at lunch she made a list and a timeline for me. She is one of those very organized people and I am not. So she organized all my stuff for me, and she made a list of everything I needed to do this weekend, and next weekend. She is somewhat pushy too, but that is what I need. And Monday night me, and three of my friends from work are going to look for my shoes, and jewelry, and stuff like that. I called Erika today and told her her job was to find us hair and makeup people in LaSalle or Ottawa. I have no idea who I can have do my makeup. I want to start getting all the little things done so I can stop thinking about them. I also need to make my shower guest list and get that to Amy...I am working on that this weekend. Todd and I are going to look at tuxes tomorrow. So hopefully we will get that out of the way. And that's about it.....I will be really glad when all this stuff is off my mind.

Frustrated

I am so frustrated with this whole wedding. I am trying my hardest to keep everyone happy, and no matter how impossible I know that is, I just keep trying. Todd and I know what we want, and considering it's "our day" we should get what we want. But that's not really happening. Todd and I want a sit down dinner but my mom wants buffet, so people can choose their food, and apparently we will get more to eat that way. But we want the sit down dinner. Todd wants to be served on his wedding day. He keeps saying that's all he wants, and as much as he is left in the shadows I think he deserves that much.

Then last weekend I went home to TRY and take care of some wedding stuff. My mom called and made an appointment with a DJ, and we were early, so we sat in the park across the street for a little while. We go to the house and knock on the door, and the daughter with a baby answers, and she looks at us all puzzled. We say we are there for an 11:15 appointment, and she says, "oh come on in, she ran to the bank" as another couple is sitting there for their 10:15 appointment waiting for her to get back. I looked at my mom and shook my head no. I was pissed. So we leave our number and say call us when she gets back. So she calls us and says, "oh i thought the appointment was for sewing....." my mom got all lippy with her, but no matter what the appointment was for, her ass wasn't there. So she lost out on our business. Screw that, next she will forget she had our reception to do....I guess her and her husband DJ together, but I don't think we need two people DJing our wedding. Especially unprofessional ones.
So I am not sure how to go about finding a good dj. I don't want any hokey ones. Any tips?

Then we went looking for a place to have the rehearsal dinner. Todd's mom doesn't want to have it at the GBL because we will be eating there the next night, which makes sense. You can only spend so much time at one place.

And I really want this one photographer, but she is kind of pricey, but she takes awesome pictures. She does a lot of candid shots, which I love. I don't want too many of the formal poses. And I definitely want someone who puts them online. So we'll see....hoping I can talk my mom into springing for her.

Alright, well that's about all I got. Hope I didn't bitch too much.

We need to move out of this neighborhood pronto!!!! This morning Todd and I were going to breakfast and we were pulling out of our parking lot, and some lady waved us down. I thought maybe she needed directions or something, but she held up a folded dollar bill and asked us if she could buy a lighter from us. I was like, We don't have any lighters..... That was a first. Never had anyone try to buy a lighter off me. Todd was like, do you think she was a crackhead? So then I am sitting here watching tv and someone rang our buzzer. We have these teenage girls who live upstairs, and their mom is never home. It's really annoying.....they are always running in and out of the building at all hours. I just hope we are able to sell this place....and quick.

O.k. I am sitting here watching Animal Planet and a snake just ate a fricken gazelle. I mean I knew that snakes could swallow animals whole, but I never knew they could swallow a deer whole. Just thought I would share that.

I just realized that I have been living up here for two years now. Doesn't seem like that long at all. Seems like just yesterday I moved back from California. And in 6 months I will be married. Sometimes I don't feel adult enough to be getting married and looking for a house, and starting a family. And everyday I realize what a great guy I am marrying. Last night he told me after we get married that we are going to have to figure out a way to get me back to school. I have been talking about going back for so long, I just haven't had anyone to push me to do it. Todd is always pushing me to things that will better me, and sometimes I hate it, because I want to be lazy, but then I realize that it will just make me better, and that's all he wants for me.

And that's about all I got.

Things I Love

I am feeling kind of down in the dumps the last few weeks, so I am going to post about thing I love.

-Todd
-going home when my whole family is around
-the fact that I have made new friends at work...friends that I feel I can trust and depend on
-spring. spring is on it's way, i love the feeling you get when it warms up and you can go out without a coat
-wedding magazines
-sleeping in
-laying in bed on Saturday watching t.v.
-E! True Hollywood Story, and THS Investigates
-Sex and the City dvds
-my new warm cozy robe
-casual Friday
-Chris Farley skits, of which I am watching the best of
-the Will Ferrell cow bell skit
-chicken noodle soup and broccoli cheese soup from Panera
-my iPod
-Carrie Underwood's cd
-a clean bedroom (no clothes laying around)

Ok, that's enough for now. I just can't end this blog without a little ranting.

So yesterday my boss, who I really can't stand, sat with me to assign bids to the people in our region. And basically she piled the work on them so bad that two people were about to walk out today. I had a woman tell me today that she has been in that department for 5-1/2 years and she has never been so unhappy. Ok, so with that said, what do you think a managers response should be? You are probably saying to yourself right now, "What can we do to make it better?" NOPE! Not my boss, she said "If they can't take the heat, they can get out of the kitchen." WTF?? Now, I am not a manager and I have never been a manager. But my instinct tells me this isn't the correct response. I saw on tv that many women stay in their jobs much longer than they should because of the relationships they form at work. This is so true. The only reason I can keep going into that place right now is because I know I have friends there who can make me laugh, or lighten the mood. My friend Angela told me that she was worried about me and my stress levels and their affect on me. My stomach has been killing me the last few days, and I figured it was just because I was sick earlier in the week. But now I feel myself clenching my jaw, and that gives me a headache, and makes my teeth hurt! It's crazy the effect stress can have on your body. So I guess I need to find a way to deal with my stress. But the wedding stress isn't making things any better. Any tips?

Well at least tomorrow is Friday!!!!

Am I Dying?

So yesterday I went to meet Kelli to go get measured for her dress. After we were done, Todd came and met me at Woodfield, and we had lunch at the Rainforest Cafe. We both had the same thing, we had cheeseburgers, but his had bacon on it. I only ate half of it. As soon as I got up my stomach started to hurt, but not too bad, so we walked around the mall for awhile. When we got home, I used the restroom, if you know what I mean. My stomach was still killing me, so Todd and I both laid down...his stomach hurt too, but not like mine. So I kept getting up trying everything....I took Pepto, ate some crackers, nothing helped. Finally at around 8:00 I threw up.....it was the most I have ever thrown up in my life. Todd just stood behind me rubbing my back and flushing the toilet for me. It was horrible. Then I was really thirsty, so I thought a coke would be good, I just had that awful taste in my mouth and throat. Todd told me I should not drink coke, but he got one for me anyway. So about 10 minutes later I was back in the bathroom. So then he went to get me Gatorade....I was so thirsty at this point, so I drank a lot of it, and a lot of water. So basically I was throwing up for the rest of the night. I knew that drinking was going to make me throw up but I was so thirsty, and I didn't want to get dehydrated. At one point I had it coming out both ends. Sorry, I know you don't want to hear that. So I got no sleep at all last night, Everytime I laid down, I felt like I was going to barf. So I got no sleep last night, and I was just laying on the floor in the hallway. At 4:00 I called Todd, if I couldn't sleep neither could he. So he got up with me for awhile. I had him make me some tea and then I fell asleep for a little while on the floor. So I finally went to bed around 5:00 and slept for two hours. At one point I almost had Todd take me to the hospital... I really felt like I could die. Today I am feeling better, I haven't thrown up, but my stomach is still iffy. All I have had today is toast, and some crackers. And everytime I thought about what I ate, it made me sick to my stomach. Todd said he has never seen anyone so sick....Just glad its over. I am going back to bed now.

I Hate Wedding Planning

So the saying is "It's your day, do what you want" BULLSHIT!!!! It should be "It's your day, but you really should do what we tell you to do." Apparently I am just not good enough for Todd according to his parents, or at least his mom. She has never tried to really get to know me, and it really bothers me. She made a comment alluding to me telling Todd what to do. Because Todd seemingly can't think for himself....and I must be some pushy bitch who tells Todd what to do. So Todd sticks up for me, and now they haven't spoken in a month. Todd can't believe how his parents are being. And frankly I can't either. I can tell my parents if they are being ridiculous, but Todd is supposed to just take their shit and deal with it. His mom has no right to make judgements about me when she has made no effort to get to know me. UGHHH it just makes me so mad. So Todd kind of stood up to her and this is the way she reacts. He told her we would be picking our own bridal party and she didn't like that. So she says, "I hope this is what you want and not what you are being told you want." What kind of shit is that? What gives her the right?? As you can tell I am super fired up about this.......I wish I could just go behind Todd's back and tell her off, but it's not my place. I just need to support Todd and keep my mouth shut.